I dont know why I never dated. Im not ugly or hard to talk to, but there part of my brain that shoudl create the contacts to get to know people to date them doesnt seem to work

How i miss u.

😭😭😭😭 This isn't a confession because it's public knowledge but like can u blame me drivings hard

Lady you need help. Exercise regularly and write more.

i’m 19, the last time i was on 4chan was when i was a senior in hs (17.) everyone says im too young or i haven’t met the right person (because im /obviously/ not the problem) or some other bullshit but i know it’s me. i don’t know if it’s how i look anymore or my environment but it’s like things have changed but the love in my life has stayed the same. im too sensitive to be a whore, heart aches for something more and i’m often repulsed by human touch. i wish i was normal. i should’ve had a boyfriend by now like normal girls. 2 years since high school and im returning to inceldom, im not sure how to cope anymore. i did molly a bunch when i was 18 and it was ruining my body, i could feel myself get weaker by the day. petty hope keeps me alive. i don’t know what to do besides hate the way things are looking for me

adding bio song soon

i love u <3

Made Poop and It went Yeaaaaaaaa....

i wish i had at least one friend

I started getting super into this chick ive known IRL for a bit now and shes literally named Cleopatra, sweet caramel skin and short hair all that. Just realised I will never be a teasy scribe (a worthy royal position make no mistake, im not looking to be a damn slave!) leaving slutty messages on government documents only she had the literacy and permission to read just for her to call me to her cushy room late at night and show me off all her jews and statues I just know I won't have. I will sit with my back turned to her and snarkily complain about the decadence of our society while blaming her pharaohship or whatever and she will cynically stick golden needles in my back every time I tease her just to put me in my place "Well our havest has been destroyed by scarab bec-ACKKK♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡" "Your taste in jewelry is rather pedestriANNHNNNNNHNNN♡♡♡" Sorry im not worthy enough of staring at Ra's descendants ot whatever god the pharaohs were said to be, even if I do love to challenge them She takes my hand from behind and kisses it silently just for me to awkwardly walk back to my cushy riverside house and wander around while ignoring my books and piling paperwork reliving that moment over and over and over wondering what she meant by that. She feels a little repulsed but cant help but feel a bit affectionate, specially as I had kissed her hand so much before, and she won't kiss it again for weeks, maybe months... Too bad the ACTUAL her is just a 6-7/10 dumb bitch who agrees with me on all my complaints and teasing going "yeah yeah im so bad and stupid" like a dumpster slut, fuck off I wish I could live with the versions of peoole I have in my head, like fuck you I deserve to get slapped and laugh it off as you do it because I get off to it. Where's the self affirmation!? Why are you not demanding me to wish beautiful risings for my pharaoh!? Hmph, why are woman i believe to be different and special just like this, hell even the ones who claim to be dominant just try to scream orders at me as if im going to follow them just to see sloppy tits after humiliating myself, you're supposed to take it slow and give me crumbbs of love and make me poetically YEARN! Her dumb dad gave her this stupid name btw no clue why

I dont crash out all my schizophrenic rants are meticulously written and planned to make you believe im going insane for ulterior motives. I go on incredibly deranged and mental breakdown sounding pargraph diatribes in the dms of a woman im fucking, copy and paste and forward it to the 5 other ones im talking the exact same way just to see what happens and if it maybe maybe works. There is a kernel of truth there im just unsure if I only ever stuck out or had sucess by pretending to be insane/eccentric that now I genuinely am

james be a fucking man